Summer’s looking up! It’s been terrible so far, but after a handful of “we don’t really think you’re good enough” emails I finally got one yesterday for an interview at Macy’s! It seriously made my daybecause 1) I’m bored and need to do something with my time and 2) It’s my first interview after filling out tons of on-line applications. Hopefully I get the job because I will need el dinero when school starts or if I want to go to England in the Spring. Wish me luck!
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I have previously discussed what an amazing person my mother is and I’m sick of people in Mexico and here saying how horrible she is and how amazing my aunt is. They need to switch the roles and stop talking about things they don’t know anything about. I’m glad we’re in LA though further away from the drama. I thank whatever higher being is out there that my mom moved out here when she was fourteen. I wouldn’t be able to bear living out there or her being like her townspeople.
I’m ready for happier times to come. Hopefully sooner, rather than later.
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My grandmother died last Wednesday. The doctor said there was nothing left to do so we took her back to her house in the village the night before she died. Just walking around her house and the village reminded me of all the times we spent together in those places. Being back home in L.A. helps to forget the pain a little, but she also came here when I was five so I remember things from them. Here things my grandmother taught me:
- Cats are the devil because they eat their children.
- Dogs smell nasty when you try to give them a bath.
- DO NOT leave your arroz con leche on when you go answer a telephone call … it will burn.
- How to speak Zapoteco because that’s all she spoke to my mom when she came to the states.
- My dad will never stop drinking because his mother has wished so many bad things for him.
- Family is family no matter how mad they make you, because one day you will end up needing them.
- You really do need all those people going to help out at funerals.
- If you take too long running an errand you WILL turn into a vulture.
- Don’t act too quickly on something you hear.
Things I remember:
- Trying to buy food with food stamps she found.
- Trying to make us tortilla chips and burning them, but still making us eat them
- Trying to walk to my mom’s job during the Martin Luther King Jr Day Parade.
- Consoling me when I was crying because I thought I wasn’t going to be able to afford going back to college.
- Going to the Basilica of Our Lady of Guadalupe and the Pyramids in Mexico City.
- Going to the Pyramids in Monte Alban.
- Trying to take out the lice out of my sister’s hair.
- Taking the lice out of my hair by using RAID when I was five.
- Her yelling at me about not being able to proper care of my sister.
- Watching Dora the Explorer with my sister, even though she always fell asleep.
- Preaching about how blenders and washing machines aren’t as good as doing things by hand.
More will be added as I remember.
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I probably shouldn’t be on the Internet or anything, but I have to vent somehow. At the beginning of last week my aunt realized my grandma sounded sick. My aunt that lives in a nearby village in Mexico went to see her after my mom and aunt called her to tell her to go and eventually took her to where she lives to take care of her. My grandma got worse and worse and my aunt wouldn’t take her to the capital to the doctor until my mom told her she was flying over there to take her herself. Today, she called me and told me the doctors say she has liver cancer. I felt like I was in a movie. I’ve been crying ever since and keep hoping it’s a nightmare and I’m going to wake up any minute… but I realize it’s not going to happen. I keep thinking of all the things I should have done. Should have. Could have. Would have. But I didn’t. She’s getting worse and worse and I only hope my sister and I make it there in time to see her. I barely talked to her like a week ago in our teasing way and now knowing that she’s not going to be there anymore hurts so much I can’t even explain it. It’s horrible and I can’t even do anything about it. I wish I could just be with her right now or that I could have done something when I went last year.
This morning I awoke to the news that Bobby Brown named his new baby boy “Cassius”, which in America is apparently pronounced CASHus. It basically made my day and here’s why, in case you don’t know what i connected it to:
Bobby Brown, to ME you are officially a LEGEND!
So I have barely been officially back in LA for a week and for some odd reason (called money) I kind of want to go back to San Diego. Not having a job, when your plans for the future involve money sucks big time. I hate applying for jobs online because I feel like there’s no face to face communication! I tried going around places asking for an application/if they’re hiring only to be told mostly “No” or “You have to apply on-line”. Frustration. I got so desperate I even went to a couple of the government building downtown. Good news Angelinos, your government workers are well guarded and bureaucracy is a bitch. So I’ve resigned myself to applying for jobs online, but you can only fill out the same (EXACT) questionnaire (that is supposed to tell them your personality I presume) so many time. Even though I should be a pro at filling this out and I sadly know most of the questions in order, I still feel like I’m giving the wrong answers and will therefore not be hired. I might just pack up and go right back to San Diego and beg for my regular job back.
Ya Heard? 