Ya Heard?

H1N1 (aka Swine Flu), originally uploaded by The.D80.Project.

Last Tuesday (after my Arctic Monkeys concert) I woke up and found out my voice still wasn’t back since I lost the night before from too much singing. I thought it was just my voice, but as the day went on, I got a fever, then body aches, and eventually a cough. It was so bad by the afternoon that I could barely make my way back to my dorm room. It seemed like I had swine for the second time in a year (neither time has been confirmed). Wednesday, I could not go to class. I called the Health Center to see if I could get an appointment so they could tell me what was wrong, but surprise surprise … they told me not to leave my room under any circumstance. Basically, I was left to die if I did have swine flu. Apparently my life is worthless. Good to know when I graduate and the school starts asking me for money. Anywho, as you might be able to tell I’m much better. I still have a cough, but it doesn’t hurt to move. Yay NYQUIL. I highly recommend it if you present flu-like symptoms and your Health Center refuses to see you. That shiz works.

I have previously discussed what an amazing person my mother is and I’m sick of people in Mexico and here saying how horrible she is and how amazing my aunt is. They need to switch the roles and stop talking about things they don’t know anything about. I’m glad we’re in LA though further away from the drama. I thank whatever higher being is out there that my mom moved out here when she was fourteen. I wouldn’t be able to bear living out there or her being like her townspeople.

I’m ready for happier times to come. Hopefully sooner, rather than later.

I probably shouldn’t be on the Internet or anything, but I have to vent somehow. At the beginning of last week my aunt realized my grandma sounded sick. My aunt that lives in a nearby village in Mexico went to see her after my mom and aunt called her to tell her to go and eventually took her to where she lives to take care of her. My grandma got worse and worse and my aunt wouldn’t take her to the capital to the doctor until my mom told her she was flying over there to take her herself. Today, she called me and told me the doctors say she has liver cancer. I felt like I was in a movie. I’ve been crying ever since and keep hoping it’s a nightmare and I’m going to wake up any minute… but I realize it’s not going to happen. I keep thinking of all the things I should have done. Should have. Could have. Would have. But I didn’t. She’s getting worse and worse and I only hope my sister and I make it there in time to see her. I barely talked to her like a week ago in our teasing way and now knowing that she’s not going to be there anymore hurts so much I can’t even explain it. It’s horrible and I can’t even do anything about it. I wish I could just be with her right now or that I could have done something when I went last year.

Do normal 19 year olds know what they’re going to do with their lives? Because this one (me) doesn’t.

So I came to college thinking I was going to be a Psychology major, maybe thinking that I could make the world a better place or something … I don’t even remember. I took PSYCH 101 and it was bad. Just bad. I was thinking of minoring in History and turned that into my major because if there’s anything I really like it’s history. Most of the time when I tell people I’m a history major, they tell me they hate it. Whenever that rare person comes along that says they like history too, I have the urge to hug them just like I want to hug the people at Starbucks that spell my name right.

Well, I came into college with AP History credits so I’m just a few classes away from fulfilling the requirements for my major and GE ones too. I need to save some classes to take if I go abroad and I don’t know what other classes to take! I was thinking of maybe being a Communications minor, but I’m not sure. This is so frustrating. I wish I could trade places with my sister and enjoy my childhood as long as I can.

I want to be 2 years old!

I knew Lovefoxxx was amazing the moment I saw the video for Let’s Make Love and footage of her on the NME tour 2 years ago, but I never could have imagined how amazing it was to be so close to her at the Echoplex last December. Gahhhhh she’s my hero! I seriously wish I could be like her when I grow up.  She makes me wish I were a hetersexual man or a lesbian who had a chance with her. Anyways, just to remember all the good times from their last L.A. concert, CSS are seriously on repeat on my iPod. I’ve listened to Left Behind like 20 times these past few days.

For whoever is searching for “yannis philippakis girlfriend” (you know how it tells you search terms or whatever on here?), I’m sorry I don’t have the answer to that. BUT, I will say that if he has one I’m sure she’s a very lucky girl.

x

Living off Of: Guava Rockstar
Eating: Nothing because I’m so stressed I don’t even think about it. Actually I ate half a bagel and a cookie but only so I don’t pass out.
Working on: My Hitler Paper. It’ll be over by 5 pm tomorrow.
Listening to: the Ladies at my job talk about God knows what.
Wish I Was: back to Thursday at the Echoplex with Lovefoxxx